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In 2 DAYS Belle will be 1!!! How crazy is that? This year has gone by so fast. Gavin will be 3 in a less than 3 weeks. Im attempting to pull off probably the most mismatched combination birthday party ever... its a Belle-erina/ Spider Gavin party. We'll see how it goes.

 I have so many things going on in my head, its hard to organize them into complete sentences. I'll try to just spout out some thoughts as they come to mind, like thought bubbles. Work is very stressful. Its hard being away from my kids so much. Adam and I get have been getting one day every other week off together and its Sundays. Its been very hard to go to church when I know that will be our only "family day" for another 2 two weeks. I feel stuck doing something I love in an environment that is detrimental to my sanity. I'm thinking about going back to school. Im struggling with parenting a (almost) 3 year old. It seems he is so well behaved with everyone but me. I can't seem to find a technique that works and I'm comfortable with. I AM making time for me. I've started doing "Couch to 5k" Ill be starting week 2 on Thursday. It has actually helped me de-stress a lot.

Thats all my thought bubbles....

 Despite all the crazyness, Im feeling less crazy.. I know that SOUNDS crazy, but I am getting better at the 'crisis mode'. Im learning to just take things one step and a time. Im doing what I can with my job for now, until things improve or something else comes along. Thats all I can do. Im making the most of my family time, and my "me" time. I feel like Ive grown a lot over the past few months and that helps keep me from going into "crisis" mode.

Well, time to get crafty. I've got lots of tutu's and cupcake toppers to make for the upcoming birthday event!

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  1. AmberOctober 29, 2011 at 6:54 PM

    Jane, appreciate your bubbles. We are praying for your family and know you both have the strength to get through this season. P.S. I have had the same struggle with my first born 3 year old as well and at times still do. Now although that isn't very encouraging that I still do, do know that it is very normal and that you are not alone.
    I recently caved and went to Fantastic Sam's b/c I could get color---but did not love my haircut. :(

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